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The timebomb
Monday, June 21, 2010 @ 12:13 am

Darling, I'm afraid our time is up.


I came back from Nepal wanting to book the next flight back.
Selfish? Maybe. Escape? Hell yeah.

Life back here is so sucky and problematic compared to peaceful Nepal.

Mummy finally broke the news to me.
About letting Gooby go.

Seriously what can I say?
I'm helpless, that's a fact.
It has always been Gooby and me.

I mean, when he's cute and all, everyone's by his side.
But what about bad times?

Are we supposed to give up just because he keeps barking?
Are we supposed to give up cos one day he will fall sick again?
Are we supposed to give up just because Gooby doesn't behave like we want him to?

I have been fighting fighting fighting, but it seems like I'm still going to lose.
No one is standing on my side.
I cannot blame them, cos you can't force someone to go against their nature.

Even if I want to pay all the bills, even if I don't mind having Gooby on my bed,
just becasue I don't mind doesn't mean the rest don't mind.
And that itself is the reason.

I can't even kiss Gooby, cos "the dog is damn dirty"

Whatever reasons I have, whatever I say, they will be blocked.
What can I do but give in?
I don't want to, I'd hate to, but eventually, darling, I have to give you away.

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Baby, I hate myself for making the mistake in the first place.
I shouldn't have insisted on taking you home and believed that everyone would change their life for you and I.
Sorry for taking away your right to be loved properly.
As much as I want to, I can't protect you.

Farewell is going to be so painful, at least for me.
It's going to come soon, maybe in weeks, maybe in months.

From now till the day you go away, I'll love you as much as possible.
I'll hug you so hard and kiss you so much.
Hopefully you'll remember me.

Love, mummy.

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If anyone is willing or keen to adopt Gooby, please let me know.
I really rather give him up to someone I know.
And, it's a big decision, hopefully this someone can be with Gooby till the end.